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[May. 16th, 2007|06:56 pm] |
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ahhh. i know im going to be hella super stupid busy tomorrow. but theres nothing to do right now. Art is here from south carolina, but i cant find him - which sucks cuz i really miss getting drunk with my stinky amigo. i just drove to providence a moment ago for no reason whatsoever. yea. then i got burned on a phoney buy-one-get-one ciggerette deal. damn you camel...
yea these are the intimate details of my mundane life.
Maia is in LA. i miss her. we need to get stuff from tucker ave. if anyone out there has a pickup truck and would like to help me out, let me know. that would be sweet.
yea. |
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[Apr. 25th, 2007|03:16 pm] |
makin money and slappin bitches, bitch.
(note:if i actually slapped my bitch, id probly get hurt...) |
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[Apr. 11th, 2007|04:16 pm] |
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| |  accomplished | ] |
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| | endo-heavy metal breaks | ] |
things are going pretty well. im going to pass classes and i finally have a stable job at a place that i like. i keep thinking that things could possibly be alot better, but that could really just be the indecision and inexperience talking. id like to make some changes, i just dont know where or how, or even what i chould change. i guess the best thing to do in a situation like this is just to coast along and see what happens. who knows.
im staying home tonight, and getting school work done. i have three speeches and two papers due, and then im dont with everything for this semester. sure i didnt really make it to 2 of 4 of my classes, but ill be damned is im going to fail the two istuck with without a good reason. whats more frustrating is that if i just actually concentrated and gave a shit, im sure i could buzz right through CCRI. but i half ass it and end up dissapointing myself and others. but. until i have the determination im not going anywhere...
socially speaking, im at sort of a stand still. i have a few tried and true friends who i see, but i dont go out and have no interest in things that i once used to define me as a person. i just dont care anymore. and btw im not really complaining. i would like something new and intriuging to come around but im not pushing it. i want to go to a festival or two this summer and thats what im going to look forward too. fuck parties and shows and gettogethers and blah blah blah. festivals is where its at... i get it all out of my system in one or two weekends....
anywho. thats the update. and now the weather.... |
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[Apr. 5th, 2007|04:09 pm] |
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so i guess im going to be washing dishes for like, the next three months at least. five days a week. at eggs up on mendon road. i work with dustin. its kinda cool. now i can quit my other dishwashing job... sweet....
the weather sucks too |
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[Mar. 28th, 2007|03:27 pm] |
so.
things are kind of a blur right now, just keeping up with stuff and doing my best. being as responsible as i can. which is hard and not as much fun as being irresponsible. but ive done my best burn my bridges to the land of mischif and strife. im still just following the program. going to school. working. saving money(up to almost a G!) and trying to make something out of myself. it just sems like theres not enough oppertunity out there for me. i want some one to be like, "heres something to do. its going to be alot of work but very rewarding" i would really like to get plopped into a career like one unappreciative and lucky girl who i know, who will not read this most likely.
i just feel like, where am i going from here? am i really going to be washing dishes and going to ccri for the next like, four years?!?!? thats like a fucking death sentance and i will not accept that. i need something, and although that something is coming in small doses hear and there, i just dont think that its enough.
but.
living in cranston is alot of fun. Maia and i took a long walk this morning around the little bay area near her house, and stopped in a cafe. theres litterally 6 cafe-deli places all on the same block. its a trip. and little markets and stuff! its great.
right now im in this fucking stupid class run by this ignorant, close minded senior citizen who just lectures on his conservative oppinions and where to put semi-colons instead of teaching us how to write. and further more, hes a sub who replaced a teacher who i really liked. i know its only comp 1 but still. gnar.
so yea. that is all. |
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[Mar. 27th, 2007|03:58 pm] |
so i got a sick job @ the target. unloading trucks and whatnot. but i failed the drug test so now im washing fucking dishes. like a schmuck. but ill live. at least i have a job....but its only on the weekends, which gives me more time to look for stuff to do during the week. or something.
today is beutiful. and im inside, updating the lj. what am i doing?
damn.
so uh yea. see ya later... |
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[Mar. 5th, 2007|11:20 am] |
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geez im fucking bored. i never thought id have so much of nothing to do. its a nice day, i have a car and money and weed and cant for the life of me find something to do or somewhere to go. its kind of annoying. i think ill go to providence or something. what for? who knows... |
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[Mar. 4th, 2007|10:51 am] |
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| | boards of canada-hexagon sun | ] |
things not going as you planned? |
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[Feb. 25th, 2007|12:06 pm] |
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| | the distillers-death sex | ] |
well. the cost of doing well financially and responsibly is you trade in lots of fun times. i guess its worth it. just supporting the addictions you can afford to support, coffee and ciggerettes, the occasional doobie. tacos.
ooh... doobie and tacos...
im going to the spring flower and garden show tomorrow. to work and to enjoy the show. i thnk im going to get a cactus. and some mustard. those are the fun things to buy there.
now im downloading music and writing. thats about it. call me if ya need somethin |
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[Feb. 21st, 2007|03:09 pm] |
my comp 1 calss is the biggest waste of time. i wish i could just hand in all the work and not have to show up, im not learning anything i havent already had drilled into my brain since 7th grade. like, i know how to to do a five paragraph essay, we can stop going over this now.
well. im not sure what im doing this evening. probably hanging out in cranston. blah blah blah.
this weekend was fun. went to charles town and hung out with my big sista lyzzee. drank some booze and had fun with N20 and drums. thinking of words that would describe the ninjapocalypse.
i have no friends anymore. granted, its because i think im too cool and i pushed them all out of my life. but i really am. and they really needed a push. im not as concerned with friday night as i was, or have been in the past. and even some of your friends that you thought might still be chill, nope their a bunch of big losers too and you dont need them. these have just been a couple thoughts. i ignore about a quarter or the people who call my cell.
the only people i see nowadays are lyz and uzi, maia, and al. but hey? what more do you need?
all i ever hear about the social circles ive left is "blah blah blah got (insert arrested/pregnant/beat up/half ass attept at suicide) and thats it.
my new best friend is the cat lady at work. shes old and conservative and easily offended, super catholic, and generally a person i wouldnt get along with, however, shes very nice and cares about the world as a whole as well as every mouse, cat, dog and bug in it. it gets kind of silly.
i am super addicted to red bull. i got the hook up, i get boot leg cases oopsed from a truck for twenty bucks instead of like, 38. 20$ for 24 red bulls!!! thats fucking great.
the flower show is coming up. i get a "hey i work here" pass this year, and all i had to do was move about 2 tons of concrete, litterally. and about a ton of caste iron. oh yea i ghot a caste iron bananna holder thats like, a monkey. its the greatest thing ever. youd have to see it.
well, im off to go huff some gasoline and illegally farm oysters for communist china. cheerio |
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[Feb. 14th, 2007|03:36 pm] |
oh my god after all this thought and confusion and strife i better be one wise old man one day. its a good thing i love life experience as much as i do. the good, the bad, the mediocre. i want it all.
things with maia could be perfect. could be. could be could be could be. as long as we dont ignore things, as long as we work on stuff instead of just flipping out.
progress.
c'mon now. dont make me get psychoanalytical on your ass. |
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[Feb. 13th, 2007|06:53 pm] |
well. i got in a car accident. not my fault, someone rearended me on 95s. it sucked. the cops were mean, almost left me on the side of the highway. assholes... even when you respect cops their still mean to you. gnar. i might get a new car out of it tho. i hope so anyway.
im about to go to class in half a miunte. well, 5 minutes. fucking music theory.
blah blah blah living in cranston. saving all my hard earned money 8 bucks at a time.
debating, trip to cali or a new laptop. my girl dosent seem as enthusiastic as i do about the trip to cali i dont know...
well. i have to get some things sorted out in my head. things are confuzing right now, nothing will ever be as simple as you think, unless youre ignoring complication. which makes things more complicated. bleh. maybe im just thinking too much.
i wanna get drunk, i havent been enibriated in like two weeks. wtf. |
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[Feb. 7th, 2007|03:28 pm] |
well. things are still great. im in class rite now, i shouldnt be writing in my journal but apparently i am. ive been at maia's for like, 2 months now. yup. were in love its great. weve wasted alot of time though, and ive turned her into a slob.
went to a really fun superbowl party, stayed up real late and had a good time. ughh yesterday sucked but whatever. music class is a drag. i hate that shit.
i need a lap top. id be so much more of an efficent student is i could work anywhere i went. yup.
thats about it. im going to LA soon, for fun and good times. im working alot and saving money. yup yup. |
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[Jan. 23rd, 2007|05:47 pm] |
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| | neil diamond! | ] |
sorry i havent been around lj land. i havent been near a computer in a while, havent really had time to write, what with all my time spent in cranston. which, by the way, is going awesome. im so happy.
ive never been so satisfied with anyone else in my entire life. i feel like ive upgraded a notch in life. im working alot, super on point with everything school related, and being really responsible.
this is turning into me just bragging about how awesome shit is. but really. i think i deserved this. after all the shit i just went through in 05', i needed this to happen. some things still stress me out, having abandoned my staple social circle. but ive realized that trading in a bunch of crappy people who really dont give a shit for a few really tight, really good friends is where its at. it also provides more time to get shit done.
everytime i try to talk to someone from my last year or so circle, like jenn or steph or beth or or blah blah blah, im just depressed by shit. like really? is that what your doing with your life? wow. great. glad im not around. un-you.
my biirthday could have been cooler. jim n' krztee did an awesome job throwing me a party like they do every year, but for the most part, i was dissapointed, like every year. the people who i reminded and really expected to show up or at least call me didnt. i got a bottle of tequila, and no one would drink with me so i drank by myself. reminisant of years past. so that was my experience as a teenager. fun times huh? lets focus on the future.
im going to LA soon, before march. to see some family, of mine and of maia's. and to take a break from RI. i need to get out once in a while. ive never been to the west coast before, im excited.
thats about it. if you want to see me, your just going to have to call me. i chill constantly. i throw extravigant dinner parties as well, and your probably invited. only one way to find out! |
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[Jan. 9th, 2007|03:55 pm] |
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| | total all out water | ] |
im happier than i've been in years. all i want to do is spend time with her. its ridonk. she came to sunday dinner and had fun hanging out with my family. i keep waiting for me to wake up.
i like the way she makes coffee.
i like picking her up at work everyday.
i like her sunglasses.
the list goes on
im walking on thin air.
my birthday is the 13th, friday the thirteenth. some one should come, even though i dont have any friends anymore. |
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[Dec. 30th, 2006|12:55 pm] |
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you know when you just fall, fall, fall into a black hole for a couple days? when youve realized that you dissapeared, and dont want to come back? turn off the phone, tune into something else?
i spent the last three days having fun. pure, unadulterated, non-stressful fun. this morning when i woke up i realized i hadnt thought one negitive thought in the last three days. i wasnt worried about anything, just happy to be where i was, no will to be anywhere but there.
i think this summer is going to rock. its fucking winter and im already suped about the summer. it feels like summer already in my brain. |
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[Dec. 28th, 2006|11:27 am] |
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| |  contemplative | ] |
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| | plug me in-add n to x | ] |
the week to come may prove to be dramatic. i think there are important conversations to be had, and proactive things to do. |
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[Dec. 26th, 2006|10:56 am] |
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| |  excited | ] |
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| | sun vs moon sage francis | ] |
so christmas was pretty cool. i got good presents for everyone. scarfs and nalgene bottles and books and things from the future. although, i have to say the my favorite part of the night may have been dinner with maia and her mom and her aunt. great conversation, i got to cook them all food, all together it was really nice. i fucked up my venicine but whatever... we drank wine and ate icecream and walked to the store in the rain. it was fun. maias apartment is really cool. maia and i were really good friends and we just fell out oof eachothers loop. we havent really spent any time together in years, so its refreshing to see her. she knows me really well, which is nice compared to all those that just think they know me. and i get along with her mom and her (aunt?). she wants me to go to urguay with her. i really need to go, im so excited. i dont care how much it costs, that would be sick. i can drink at bars there, and the most expencive drinks there in the nicest trendiest bars are like, 1$, at most.
i got an ipod. i had to do all sorts of stuff to my puter to make it work, like upgrading OS X, and iTunes, which was a bitch. but one of my obscure relatives i dont know so well (linda?) helped me out. now i even know more about this fuckin machine. i have all 3121 songs, fucking 14 gigs of music in a little sleek shiny little device. yea buddy. im very enthuzed
today, i think im going to try and track down linsy, give her her present, pick up and drop off a perscription, head south to providence, see rose if i can, visit maia at work, buy some things with christmas money. i need a new spoon, thats the first thing on the list. i really want that electro-sex-system at miko's, but i cant spend 120$ on that shit just so i can sesually electrocute my junk (or yours).
im actually just procrastinating now untill i sign up for classes. woo hoo. but yea.
you all need to call me. and yes, im talking to you. like, melissa, maddie. ciana, you should call me i havent talked to you in years. mista reed. anyone else who wants to.
well. im done. cheerio |
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[Dec. 14th, 2006|12:38 pm] |
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| | akira soundtrack | ] |
just took my first final. AND I FUCKIN ACED IT!!!!!! with out any studying or effort put into that class at all, i got an A. im proud of myself, especially because i failed it last semester. booya! |
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